Saturday, January 26, 2008

Thousand Thoughts of my future bangs inside my head

Studied for almost 20 years. Hard effort on studies. Acquired Knowledge. Conceived the idea for future (Really Big and Challenging).


Now I am working in Information-Technology Outsourcing Consultancy. What the work being done in these consultancies can be done by a High School student if properly trained. Then why am I here ... degrading all my knowledge? Its all because of ignorance of Masters Degree. Ok let it be. Still what is the value for the technical knowledge acquired in Engineering ? Where is the time for thinking Innovative ?


Hmm.. Mostly things are not innovative in the IT field. All same labour work, which also steal your pricious personal time. Ya, I usually draw something during my leisure time, right from school time. Now I got a poster-color box. But no time to get Painting Brushes and Charts !!! I am coming home at mid-night. No shops around. In morning (i.e. 1 p.m.) I get-up, get-ready and rush out of home to catch the vehicle for office. In weekends, all time is spent in sleeping and roaming and paying bills, etc. So practially there is no TIME for myself.


The way I studied in school and the way I gained knowledge in college life all went into ditches once I started career in IT industry. People with high-level of technical knowledge and people who just come to spend time and make money all live in the same office. All being paid the same salary. Is there any other industry which give good salary? a BIG NOOOOOO... Infact my friends in Mechanical Core Companies (Who used to be techies) are all now studying SAP and trying to switch into IT companies.


OK, it is unchangable fate for Indian youth (as of 2000 till now). Are people happy in IT field? again a BIG NOOOOOOO... Some non-techies are ahead of us with good Profile and Higher Pay. This makes us feeling depressed and gives us a thought to DO SOMETHING... What is that SOMETHING to do??? as of now this is a big confusion.


IT people, both techies and non-techies, hardly knows the future of the Industry. Nothing is predictable at this point of time. The only aim at present is to save as much as money as possible. So people dont even think of the quality of work but always think about the salary. Atleast there should be some quality work in the IT industry which might keep us satisfied. But in most cases the non-techies sitting on your head will supress your new way of approaching any problem or implementing good fundas/coding/ project architecture. You being capable of doing good work will be made to do a work which you dont get satisfied just because of non-techie ahead of you.


Now Iam also into the society's whirlpool. Just do what all others do. Eat sleep save money.I think the society is getting worser and worser.


But again a second thought. Am I doing something stupid by not giving any try for a business ?!! All it requires is Investment which I dont have now. Most of the society icons such as Ambani hardly studied anything. But they are daring in the life. So I also think ' am I coward?'. If I say that I can do a good, creative, quality work then why should I stay in IT? So am I really lacking the guts to enter business or something new? I really cant answer this question. Something says from my inner heart that I can shine well in future? But a kind of fear creeps in the mind that I will be just be in this level and settle down in life. NOOOOOOOOO... I dont want to be a normal peroson. Oh, but I dont do anything special to get out of a normal life. Then how could I expect something special in my life?


When is the day that I will do something special? Nothing will come into the hands. We need to grab it. When will I come out of the cocoon and fly?? All these thoughts bang my head daily before I sleep (as like now because of which Iam writing this blog-post !).


One thing is clear. Till you afraid for taking risk, you will loose continuously. A techie with fear for risking... simply fails. But a non-techie who takes risk... emerges with atleast little success. RISK is the factor that matters in the real-life environment.


What RISK you have taken to show yourself ??? ha ha.. if nothing.. smile at yourself (pathetically!)

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